Sometimes I just worry too much. I worry about things I am not supposed to be worrying about. I worry about other people's businesses. I worry about things that don't matter. I worry just about anything. Thus, the syndrome.
It is not all the time that I worry. There are just some triggers that make me.
1. Looking at my computer clock and I only have a few hours left and I still have so much work to do. This worries me because I am known to be organized and I am sure that I am and so if I still haven't crossed out most of the stuff in my to-do list I already start to worry. I never really want to be tagged as unproductive just because I didn't finish my self-imposed tasks. On second thoughts, this reason shoots extra load of adrenaline thus a day rarely ends without the list getting all red and all done.
2. Seeing the clouds turn dark and purple when I have clothes in the clothesline. I don't want "Manang" to wash the clothes again and waste water, detergent and fabric conditioner. It's the sometimes stingy me. And well of course since I don't pay her monthly, I get to pay her again for the additional work that she has to do.
3. Not knowing that my family is safe. Thus I make sure that I keep in contact with them either through a phone call, SMS or chat everyday. I admit I talk to my mom more often than my dad but that doesn't mean I care less. I also try to talk to the Lil Sis as often as I can.
4. Not getting a message from KB right after he is back on a mission. I just wish I never knew about this website I bumped into. I don't even want to talk about it now as I had a quick burst of heavier than normal heart palpitations when I looked at it earlier. Maybe soon I could talk about it. In the meantime, I am convincing myself to be optimistic and pray that it's just another blackout. I know God will be there for him. I just worry too much and I should keep these worries aside.
5. Missing bills payment. Missing gym classes I am supposed to attend. Missing calls. Just missing things I was supposed to attend to.
6. I worry when my team isn't performing too well. I would always equate to me not doing my job well. I would always equate it to me not meeting the expectations I have set for myself.
I know there are still a lot of things that worry me. I just could not put it into writing. My thoughts is in bad shape now. I am worrying now for the record. Jonah was talking to me earlier and I am hearing differently than what she's telling me. My mind is travelling. My mind is not at ease. I am worried to bits!
It is not all the time that I worry. There are just some triggers that make me.
1. Looking at my computer clock and I only have a few hours left and I still have so much work to do. This worries me because I am known to be organized and I am sure that I am and so if I still haven't crossed out most of the stuff in my to-do list I already start to worry. I never really want to be tagged as unproductive just because I didn't finish my self-imposed tasks. On second thoughts, this reason shoots extra load of adrenaline thus a day rarely ends without the list getting all red and all done.
2. Seeing the clouds turn dark and purple when I have clothes in the clothesline. I don't want "Manang" to wash the clothes again and waste water, detergent and fabric conditioner. It's the sometimes stingy me. And well of course since I don't pay her monthly, I get to pay her again for the additional work that she has to do.
3. Not knowing that my family is safe. Thus I make sure that I keep in contact with them either through a phone call, SMS or chat everyday. I admit I talk to my mom more often than my dad but that doesn't mean I care less. I also try to talk to the Lil Sis as often as I can.
4. Not getting a message from KB right after he is back on a mission. I just wish I never knew about this website I bumped into. I don't even want to talk about it now as I had a quick burst of heavier than normal heart palpitations when I looked at it earlier. Maybe soon I could talk about it. In the meantime, I am convincing myself to be optimistic and pray that it's just another blackout. I know God will be there for him. I just worry too much and I should keep these worries aside.
5. Missing bills payment. Missing gym classes I am supposed to attend. Missing calls. Just missing things I was supposed to attend to.
6. I worry when my team isn't performing too well. I would always equate to me not doing my job well. I would always equate it to me not meeting the expectations I have set for myself.
I know there are still a lot of things that worry me. I just could not put it into writing. My thoughts is in bad shape now. I am worrying now for the record. Jonah was talking to me earlier and I am hearing differently than what she's telling me. My mind is travelling. My mind is not at ease. I am worried to bits!
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