Saturday, October 25, 2008

New Page Element

I have added one page element in my sidebar and that is the "Song of The Day". I love listening to my music collection and would love to share some to y'all. I will be changing the song daily and I promise that only songs that are easy to the ears will be posted.

If you think, this new element increases the load time of my site, please do let me know so I can find some alternative codes. Will gladly tweak the HTML codes.

Anyway, enjoy reading and I will be back in a little while to update you about the week that was and some other stuff.

Meanwhile... Ta ta!

Miss KT

Monday, October 20, 2008

RIP Brandon Spencer Koch

I was in a state of "I-don't-know-what-to-do" over the weekend over this one topic. I initially planned not to write about this but beyond all reasons I ruled over that I should. It's been 2 years (October 18, 2006-October 18, 2008) since Brandon met the accident that killed him almost instantaneously. I still could recall the conversation I had with Chris when he informed me of what happened.

Chris: Brandon is in the hospital, he was in an accident this morning on his way to work.
Kessa: Oh, that explains the reason why he hasn't returned my calls. OMG! Is he alright? Can I talk to him? How is he doing?
Chris: Hmmmm, he can't talk right now.
Kessa: Why, what happened?
Chris: Do you have someone with you now?
Kessa: No, I am alone. Please tell me what happened.
Chris: I'm sorry to be the one telling you this but Brandon did not make it.
Kessa: No. Please tell me you're joking. No, that couldn't happen!!! (wails)
I was in a state of denial. I pinched myself in disbelief. I was hoping I was only dreaming. Even then, I flinched and realized I did really have that conversation with Chris for real. I was inconsolable. It couldn't happen. Chris told me that he will keep in contact and keep me posted and he did. I am so thankful that he did.
Looking back at days gone by, I couldn't completely believe how I've pulled through after October last year. It was, in reckoning, still the darkest and saddest month of my life. It beats not having a pedicure in a month (well to think that I always make it a point to have my nails cleaned and groomed and buffed). Okay, not to let anyone raise some eyebrows, but yeah, seriously October 2006 was a month to remember. Brandon is sorely missed and I am the only one I guess in the world who could understand why I feel this way. His passing has been one of my life's ebbs and what happened beyond October was truly a result of an unexpected goodbye. -a blog entry in

A lot has unfolded ever since that fateful month. A lot has changed. Secrets have surfaced, deceit even. But I do not have any single hatred. I have become friends with the other girls to say the least except for this one paranoid lady who still thinks that he is alive and that we should fight over him. I do not bear any grudge. It's the least I can do. Besides, he never let me feel that I wasn't the only one. I still see him as the mild-mannered individual who hates smoking big time whom I've learned to love.

I have moved on in so far as letting go is concerned. I have came in to terms to his passing. I have restarted my life. I have closed that chapter. And I know that he is happy with the choices I made. I know he is happy that I am extremely happy right now. The tears has dried up,it gets easier.

I'm sure as I continue to face each passing day without Brandon in my life, I know that he is smiling because I have found my courage again. He certainly doesn't want me to rot in one place, he wants me to continue where we left off. He wants me to achieve the things I work hard for. He wants my happiness always. -a snippet of a blog entry from

RIP Brandon Spencer Koch (November 10, 1978-October 18, 2006)


I was perusing my emails one time at work and received an email sent with low priority from one of my coworkers. I did read the story out of curiosity. So, I thought I'd share it to everyone through my blog instead of sending it to your mailboxes.


When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. "I want a divorce!" I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, "Why"? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, she had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew.

I didn't love her anymore... I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a months time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me.. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life tome. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday work-out made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me, .. she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property , the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you, but if you do, you just might save a marriage.
- Author unknown -

Sunday, October 19, 2008

VLOG Par Six: Qu'est-ce que l'amour?

You're the sweet dreams that soothe me
When i cant fall asleep
You're the field
In the middle of the city
Im rushing by
In the speed of light

You're the strong resolution
When i found no peace
You're the church bells a ringin
In the evening
Im always quiet
Your whisper comfort
Bless my heart
I get so weak

Oh you're lovely lovely
You're the center of my universe
(my universe)
A thousand times
I look around your heart why
Oh you're lovely lovely
You're the center of my universe
(my universe)
A million ways
I cannot explain
You're lovely

You're the soft words that touch me
When i just can't speak
You're the breeze on the ocean
In the morning
Inviting me
To greet the day

You're the flowers i remember
Singin into me
Colors true
A colder rain
Brighter ray
Soft and frail
And new day sun
Make me see

Oh you're lovely lovely
You're the center of my universe
(my universe)
A thousand times
I look around your heart why
Oh you're lovely lovely
You're the center of my universe
(my universe)
A million ways
I cannot explain
You're lovely
I understand
That there may be grief
And there may be pain
But I am aware
You blind the darkness
With who you are
Oh you're lovely lovely
You're the center of my universe
(my universe)
A thousand times
I look around your heart why
Michelle Tumes

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Wishlist Circa 2008

I have been creating wishlists for the past couple of years. Some I was able to receive or buy on my own and some just plainly were not just for me (I guess). Here's a peek at what I've wished for last year: WISHLIST 2007

Of course, accomplishing or acquiring such stuff makes me happy but not having them not at all disappoints me. It just gives me all the more reason to strive harder and wish rather harder. Hahaha! Anyway, this year wouldn't be any exception. Here you go...

1. Safety and good health of people important and dear to me (family, relatives, my KB, friends)
2. At least 3.5 and at most 4.0 Quality Point Index in my MBA (I will try hard to get this grade) - two terms
3. Anne Klein Red Dress at the Powerplant Mall - I've been eyeing this since my birthday

4. Nine West Black Pump (Classic Peep Toe Pump with a twist, leather upper, grommet details across vamp, 3 inches patent heel and leather bottom sole)

5. A nice long day at the spa (sauna/steam bath, whirlpool bath, scrub, massage, facial, wax, nail treatments) aaahhh the good life
6. A premium subscription to One True Media
7. A much more organized and cleaner room
8. A surprise trip back home in time for my granddad's birthday
9. Carmen Electra's Electra-Pole Dancing Pole Workout Complete Kit With Bonus DVD - alright, I'm not looking at venturing into professional pole dancing for the record, I just happened to watch a demo on TV and watched a couple of videos in YouTube as well and I think I can do it. Main Goal: a ripped tummy

10. A charmbracelet (butterflies, hearts, stars)
11. Slowdance with KB to a Barry White song(Just The Way You Are) - on second thoughts, just some alone time with him would really make me happy
12. A flat red ballet shoe like the one I have now (it's a little overused already)
13. World Peace

14. A subscription to Cosmopolitan magazine
15. A Rachael Ray cookbook

I think that's about it... I will be adding to this post as I begin to want/need more. LOL!

I know this post is a little self-centered but this is my blog after all. Just saying...

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Forecast is YES!

Here's a movie clip from YAHOO. Enjoy!

My Personality Type: Dynamic Thinker

I was browsing through some friend's blog sites and web sites and I happen to see this quite interesting link that offers free personality assessment. So, the ever curious me decided to try and give it a shot.

Here's my result:

Dynamic Thinkers are confident and independent persons. They radiate enthusiasm and energy. Dynamic Thinkers pursue their objectives actively and energetically. They love nothing better than new challenges. This type is the born leader, competent, energetic and responsible. They have a sharp eye for errors and can criticise without mercy if they see the success of a project endangered. They are completely unconcerned as to whether they alienate anyone in the process. But they are always open to objective arguments; they love discussions, they are very gifted rhetorically and they are good at convincing and enthusing others.

As they are very sociable, Dynamic Thinkers like to have a lot of friends around them, preferably those with whom they can share their interests and discuss all sorts of subjects. They are very direct but never in an underhand or scheming manner. If you can bear being spoken to frankly, you have in them a loyal and unwavering advisor as friend. Everything new and unknown stimulates Dynamic Thinkers and awakens their curiosity. However, rules, routine and traditional things arouse their resistance. If something does not go the way they want it to, they can react rather pigheadedly and obstinately.

Dynamic Thinkers expect a great deal of themselves and of others. Whoever does not fit in with their scheme of things does not have it easy. They sometimes appear to be rather severe due to their frankness. Partners and family also find it difficult to satisfy Dynamic Thinkers. They know exactly what they want and compromising is inconceivable to them. Whoever has an Dynamic Thinker as partner should have a strong personality and have a great deal of independence and sufficient self-confidence in order to give this dominating type some opposition. Normally, for Dynamic Thinkers, a partnership only takes second place after their profession. But they like to have someone at their side who is a match for them intellectually, with whom they can pursue mutual objectives and have interesting discussions all night long; preferably factual discussions - sentimentalism and romance are not their thing.

Some adjectives that describe me: (IT SCREAMS ME!)

extroverted, theoretical, logical, planning, rational, self-confident, ambitious, direct, open, severe, organised, determined, witty, independent, purposeful, dynamic, energetic, optimistic, competent, responsible, clever, intellectual, enthusiastic, demanding, structured, controlled, aggressive

I have to say the result was point blank me. The relization and the aha moment when I read my results is priceless. The narrative just screams to be me.
Hmmmm, except for the following...
"Partners and family also find it difficult to satisfy Dynamic Thinkers. They know exactly what they want and compromising is inconceivable to them. But they like to have someone at their side who is a match for them intellectually, with whom they can pursue mutual objectives and have interesting discussions all night long; preferably factual discussions - sentimentalism and romance are not their thing."

Go ahead you can try too. If you can leave a comment and note down the result of your test I would appreciate it. Later...

VLOG Par Quatre: One Hello

Here's another video I came up with this week...

Photo credits:

One Hello - Gary Valenciano


Friday, October 10, 2008

The Week That Was

I am on break now and trying to come in to terms that it is already Friday today, yeah almost Saturday. Although I would really like to make time just pass me by so fast, I guess it has to slow down quite a bit when I have stuff to do or when I have deliverables to accomplish. Oh well, I ought to stop blaming time. I have been slacking pretty much not the usual "Energizer Bunny" mode like I used to some months back.

I haven't been able to get some decent sleep lately and I am thinking of resorting to taking some sleeping pills to aid me to sleep. It used to be that a warm bath or a glass of milk would put me to bed and send me to oblivion but now even if I close all the window and block the sun's rays with some dark thick curtains I still could not doze off. Will prolly just have to adjust my body clock get used to my activities and I can only hope for sounder beauty rests.

I was on leave from work Monday and Tuesday and I spent the day trying to figure out what to write for my term papers for my Managerial Accounting class. Good thing I was able to come up with pretty good enough materials and I hope my professor would read them and rate them some A+. I wish!

Woke up a little later than my usual Friday night (because I slept late too, waited for a colleague's sister to come out on a noontime show) and maybe, really maybe, I was still half asleep when I went to the bathroom. I could not remember the whole scene but the last thing on my mind was me turning the shower knob on and next thing I knew I was already on my knees and saw some blood gushing from my right knee. Did I tell anyone I'm scared of blood? So, I got up, forgot about the pain and finished my shower rituals and then prepared to go to work. I initially planned of calling in sick (I have all the excuse to do so) but ruled it out, since it's my last working day and i have stuff to do at work. Good thing I logged into YM using my mobile phone and so I was able to read KB's messages. Told him about what happened not any way wanting him to worry but he did (Thanks for the concern Babe, it means a lot coming from you!). I am just happy that he is back in their base safe and sound although tired and spent. I'm looking forward to talking to him again tonight.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

We're Counting Down!