We're Getting Inked

KB and I talked about getting inked together soon and he gave me something to think about...do I like the smaller versions of his tattoos inked on me or should we both get identical ones. He has some idea in mind and I have found some drawings online that he might like.

I may have some ideas but they have been overcrowded with my fear of the needle. Well, I have friends who have gotten their inks and they are still alive so I guess I can pull it through. LOL! KB said I'll get a small one as my first. How considerate?

Here are some of the designs I found... little nymphs...






He said he'll show these illustrations to his friend who draws so he can incorporate the rest of his ideas. Me? Well, just excited... no contributions at all to the creative side of it. Silly me!

Working Dinner Out!

I am here in Bonifacio High Street right now for our final briefing and practice for our class presentation for tomorrow's Management Dynamics class. We met at TGI Friday's but decided we should transfer to The Stock Market since its a little bit cozier and a lot more silent. I did a little more slide tweaking and then we started discussing on what needs to be done and what not to do when we report. We also discussed what to wear.

I ordered Pulled Pork Barbecue with Frisco Slaw and Mashed Potato and Banana Berry Smoothie. The food was yumyum. I even immediately sent an offline message to KB just to tell him I want us to have dinner here one day.

Next thing I know we're about to wrap everything up already and call it a night. Still have to do a little more slide tweaking for the final paper when I get home.

The Attack of the Worrywart Syndrome

Sometimes I just worry too much. I worry about things I am not supposed to be worrying about. I worry about other people's businesses. I worry about things that don't matter. I worry just about anything. Thus, the syndrome.

It is not all the time that I worry. There are just some triggers that make me.

1. Looking at my computer clock and I only have a few hours left and I still have so much work to do. This worries me because I am known to be organized and I am sure that I am and so if I still haven't crossed out most of the stuff in my to-do list I already start to worry. I never really want to be tagged as unproductive just because I didn't finish my self-imposed tasks. On second thoughts, this reason shoots extra load of adrenaline thus a day rarely ends without the list getting all red and all done.

2. Seeing the clouds turn dark and purple when I have clothes in the clothesline. I don't want "Manang" to wash the clothes again and waste water, detergent and fabric conditioner. It's the sometimes stingy me. And well of course since I don't pay her monthly, I get to pay her again for the additional work that she has to do.

3. Not knowing that my family is safe. Thus I make sure that I keep in contact with them either through a phone call, SMS or chat everyday. I admit I talk to my mom more often than my dad but that doesn't mean I care less. I also try to talk to the Lil Sis as often as I can.

4. Not getting a message from KB right after he is back on a mission. I just wish I never knew about this website I bumped into. I don't even want to talk about it now as I had a quick burst of heavier than normal heart palpitations when I looked at it earlier. Maybe soon I could talk about it. In the meantime, I am convincing myself to be optimistic and pray that it's just another blackout. I know God will be there for him. I just worry too much and I should keep these worries aside.

5. Missing bills payment. Missing gym classes I am supposed to attend. Missing calls. Just missing things I was supposed to attend to.

6. I worry when my team isn't performing too well. I would always equate to me not doing my job well. I would always equate it to me not meeting the expectations I have set for myself.

I know there are still a lot of things that worry me. I just could not put it into writing. My thoughts is in bad shape now. I am worrying now for the record. Jonah was talking to me earlier and I am hearing differently than what she's telling me. My mind is travelling. My mind is not at ease. I am worried to bits!

Love You More

Since you came inside my life
You've given me the best of you everyday and night
I felt my happiness in you make me wanna ride
To the end of any valley
Then you give me peace of mind
You bring me comfort to my soul give me such a high
No I will never let you go
Make me wanna fly to the top of every rainbow


I love you more everyday
You show me love in every way
There's nothing left for me to say
But I love you
I love you more everyday
You show me love in every way
There's nothing left for me to say
But I love you

So promise you will never leave
You never say this is the end you'll spend your life with me
You'll be my husband and my best friend, raise a family
Something we both can treasure
Ooohhh yeah
In the mean time
I'm gonna put in work
You gonna be fine
You never have to work
So won't you come and fly with me
Forever you and me
That's how it's suppose to be
I love you only

I won't stop loving you
And I won't stop kissing you
You're the reason why I smile
And I won't stop holding you
And I won't stop loving you
You're the reason why I smile

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It's the 18th and I have only written two blogs this month. Yes, maybe I am slacking, maybe I am putting it off or maybe I am just free-floating in my bubble that I choose to just own my thoughts. Well, I guess I am just slacking. LOL!

Anyway, just to update everyone...I am already done with my Managerial Accounting class and I got the grade I wished and worked hard for. I was so happy I called my mom up and told her about it. I am currently taking the Management Dynamics class and we are almost done as well, three sessions to go and it'll be enrollment once again. I am looking at finishing my MBA before 2009 ends, depends on how effectively I can juggle school and work. I will try. Yes, I will try. I also have left the consulting stint I had with the Norwegian-owned company. It was a good experience and I am not sure if I am still one of the pseudo-owners of the company. Might help if I ask just in case. Not a cause for worry right now.

I have been talking to Chris again lately and he has been giving me advices that are sure worth keeping and following. Abhishek is moving to the US for a job offer. Guillermo has been keeping in touch as well. If I failed to mention yet, he is the manager from El Salvador that was sent here when Dell was still starting up to help us interview the first batch of technical support analysts. Eddene has come home from Dubai and will stay here for about a month. She has told me that her son doesn't recognize her anymore. I don't know how she is dealing with it. Darice Andrea has finally passed the Certified Public Accountant Licensure Exam. I told mom about it and of course as expected she asked me when I should take it and be a CPA finally. I quipped I like my job now and the title is not so important to me now than it was before. I would be Mrs. in the future and that's the title I would want to have. Frances and I planned for a trip to Baguio city but I had to cancel it since the Ateneo Orientation will be on the 29th. It is a mandatory requirement for all Ateneo students. Sigh! Jonah and I had a little spat but we were able to fix it. Mina and I have been going to the gym religiously and I would say she has been the best gym buddy so far. She would listen to my stories while we are busy sweating it all out (just that she doesn't like the sauna that much so I always stay in the sauna alone). Chase and I are still not talking. I don't know until when this pride of mine will reign but maybe just maybe we would be in talking terms again soon. Eina and I have been talking to each already. She has some comments about KB that I would rather keep (I'll tell you Babe if you ask.) Who else needs to be mentioned here?

I have been hooked to an online game as well. It is called FIESTA. I have never been good with video games and I am still working my way around it. So far I have managed to be Level 14 in about a week. KB has suggested I try some games out so we could have things we could do together even when we are far apart. Will try some more games soon...I have also been watching some online pole dancing classes so one of these days I might go and get myself a chrome pole to practice on.

So, I guess that should be it today. I will try to not be lazy updating this one. I will be making some more VLOGS as well. Until next blog...

While You Were Away

While you were away...

You were in my thoughts day and night. You never left your spot in my heart. You were always there beside me in each and every step I took. You have become best friends with my shadow. You were always there to push a pillow to catch every tear that fall. You were there to give me a comforting hug that it's not so much longer until you're here already. You were there to kiss my fears away.

While you were away...

I thought about all the "moments" we have had together. I thought about the shoulda-woulda-couldas. I thought about how we spent times being away from each other. I thought about how we were wrong in the past and how right it feels this time that we've known each other. I thought about the things we could do together. I thought about how I just understood the meaning of happiness, the meaning of love.

While you were away...

I kept on praying that you will be safe and secure. I kept on praying that not any one of us changes heart. I kept on praying that we will stand the test of time and that we will remain strong no matter what lies ahead.

While you were away...

I realized just how much I love you. I've come to realize that I could never fathom it. It's just gets deeper each and every day. It's just gets better every step of the way.

While you were away...

There's no one else I want to be with other than you, my KB.

I'm P****d!

Warning: This is not an entry that would make you smile...

I work the night shift and it's really difficult adjusting my body clock and sleep when the sun is high up. Add to that the noise all around me, the howling and barking of the dogs in our neighbor's house. I have been shrugging it off and understanding that they are animals and that they would not know that someone's pissed of of their actions until you tell them. I have for the most part just fallen asleep because I could not stay up anymore or fallen asleep with earplugs or fallen asleep with a pillow over my head. I have never complained for months. It was always Uncle Don who would. I would just stay mum. Finally, my last straw was reached last Friday. I called the owner of the what it seems like at least two dozens of dogs (they breed and sell dogs) and asked if they can do something about the noise their dogs are making as I need to go to sleep and I can't do it if they continue to howl and bark. And lo and behold she raised her voice and said that Chase already knows about it. Chase by the way is my housemate. I asked what can Chase do about it if he already knows. She said I have to ask Chase. It doesn't make sense, I do not understand her point. I asked her to explain what she just said and she told me a phrase I did not completely understand. I asked her again what can we do about the noise, and she muttered her "ask Chase". I told her, Chase is not even a dog or the owner of the dogs. She quipped "those are dogs and you have to deal with them" and then she hang up. I called her again and the line was busy. WTF!

How do you deal with insensitive neighbors? I envy them for putting up with their dogs 24x7. I am now seriously considering filing a complaint if there is grounds for it. I am still looking for articles to support my claim.

Don't get me wrong, I like dogs. In fact I love dogs. I grew up with dogs at home. But to deal with at least 20 dogs every day.... oh cmon? That's too much.