I have been trying to battle with myself whether to write something about the weekend and these past few days' happenings or just leave them all just documented in pictures and not in my blog but ruled that maybe someone wants to know what I have been doing while he/she/they is/are away.
After my shift last Sunday, I went home, packed my bags and decided to go out of town and Jonah did the same thing. We went to the airport and changed plans and decided that we should just go to Joyce's house in Laguna. We called Joyce and although her sleep was abruptly disturbed, she agreed that we could come over. She said her cousins are coming over too. I slept the whole time we were traveling and when we reached Joyce's house me and Jonah slept some more while Joyce was busy preparing dinner and all that. We had dinner with her cousins and then after we decided to party over grilled fish and beer and some blaring music from the three iPods. We listened to tearjerkers, rock, alternative, jazz, R&B among others).
While we were drinking, I received a text from a friend asking me if I have checked the blog I share with KB lately and if I have seen the comments. I told her I don't have my laptop with me so she sent me a couple of sentences that made my blood rise to indefinite proportions. I stayed mum and quiet and proceeded to drink some more until the wee hours of the morning (Sorry Rudy if I wasn't able to reply to you after you sent the comments). I tried to forget about it and enjoy the conversations and attempted to drown my sorrows in the alcohol right in front of me. Of course, the people I was with that night didn't have a single clue of what's going on inside my head and in my heart. They were clueless, I wish I was heartless. We finished drinking a little after 4AM and I climbed up to Joyce's room to sleep.
Morning came and my legs were tattered with mosquito bites as I did not even manage to change into my sleepwear (I slept wearing my black knee length dress) and drunk and numb as I was never cared to hide in the covers. I had multiple wee red blotches all over my legs. When I woke up, I checked my messages and lo and behold the comments dawned on me again. I discussed the matter with Jonah and Joyce and the girls had their own comments to share. They were not happy about it. I wasn't happy about it. But after rationalizing everything, I came to a conclusion that I need to hear the other side of the coin before finally deciding and before I make any drastic life-changing conclusion. It's a pretty messed situation and the drama is something I have never prepared myself for.
After breakfast, we prepared to go swim. We went to this quaint hot spring resort/park/zoo. We spent the rest of the day swimming and taking pictures and discussing about the "issue" in between. We just couldn't get over it. I wonder if KB has checked the blog already and I wonder if he had something to say about it. The voice mails he left me never mentioned anything about it so I thought I will just leave it at that until he opens up about it.
I got home at almost 10PM and spent the night glued to my laptop. Talked to a few people I haven't talked to in a while. I talked to someone who is insisting to be a part of my life but I declined with the most positive script I could ever mutter. I have known him for almost 2 years already but I just couldn't make myself love him. I am in love with someone else who seems to "love" the rest of the world (according to the comments) and me. Well, I hope he doesn't get upset when he reads this. Because come hell or high water, I'm with him.
7:00AM Tuesday - ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!
11:00AM Tuesday - I woke up after a couple of hours of sleep and went online again. I talked to "J" and he said sorry for the incident that happened last Sunday and how he dealt with an internet-strapped room and a driver that hurried him up like there's no tomorrow.
ACT 2 coming up...
After my shift last Sunday, I went home, packed my bags and decided to go out of town and Jonah did the same thing. We went to the airport and changed plans and decided that we should just go to Joyce's house in Laguna. We called Joyce and although her sleep was abruptly disturbed, she agreed that we could come over. She said her cousins are coming over too. I slept the whole time we were traveling and when we reached Joyce's house me and Jonah slept some more while Joyce was busy preparing dinner and all that. We had dinner with her cousins and then after we decided to party over grilled fish and beer and some blaring music from the three iPods. We listened to tearjerkers, rock, alternative, jazz, R&B among others).
While we were drinking, I received a text from a friend asking me if I have checked the blog I share with KB lately and if I have seen the comments. I told her I don't have my laptop with me so she sent me a couple of sentences that made my blood rise to indefinite proportions. I stayed mum and quiet and proceeded to drink some more until the wee hours of the morning (Sorry Rudy if I wasn't able to reply to you after you sent the comments). I tried to forget about it and enjoy the conversations and attempted to drown my sorrows in the alcohol right in front of me. Of course, the people I was with that night didn't have a single clue of what's going on inside my head and in my heart. They were clueless, I wish I was heartless. We finished drinking a little after 4AM and I climbed up to Joyce's room to sleep.
Morning came and my legs were tattered with mosquito bites as I did not even manage to change into my sleepwear (I slept wearing my black knee length dress) and drunk and numb as I was never cared to hide in the covers. I had multiple wee red blotches all over my legs. When I woke up, I checked my messages and lo and behold the comments dawned on me again. I discussed the matter with Jonah and Joyce and the girls had their own comments to share. They were not happy about it. I wasn't happy about it. But after rationalizing everything, I came to a conclusion that I need to hear the other side of the coin before finally deciding and before I make any drastic life-changing conclusion. It's a pretty messed situation and the drama is something I have never prepared myself for.
After breakfast, we prepared to go swim. We went to this quaint hot spring resort/park/zoo. We spent the rest of the day swimming and taking pictures and discussing about the "issue" in between. We just couldn't get over it. I wonder if KB has checked the blog already and I wonder if he had something to say about it. The voice mails he left me never mentioned anything about it so I thought I will just leave it at that until he opens up about it.
I got home at almost 10PM and spent the night glued to my laptop. Talked to a few people I haven't talked to in a while. I talked to someone who is insisting to be a part of my life but I declined with the most positive script I could ever mutter. I have known him for almost 2 years already but I just couldn't make myself love him. I am in love with someone else who seems to "love" the rest of the world (according to the comments) and me. Well, I hope he doesn't get upset when he reads this. Because come hell or high water, I'm with him.
7:00AM Tuesday - ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!
11:00AM Tuesday - I woke up after a couple of hours of sleep and went online again. I talked to "J" and he said sorry for the incident that happened last Sunday and how he dealt with an internet-strapped room and a driver that hurried him up like there's no tomorrow.
ACT 2 coming up...
1 comments:
Hi Kess, just visited your blog and have to spend time in reading since you wrote lots of entry and I don't want to miss 1. Honestly, I felt sad and guilty at the same time because I spoiled your holiday. I am so sorry bout that. But somehow, it made you prepared for some news. I salute on you on how you handle the situations.
You really are a grown up lady now! I am proud of you.! Rudy
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