The Facebook status I posted illicited some questions and worries from people close to me at work and some acquaintances I have become friends with online. Who's to tell I would have owed everyone an explanation of my current stituation? Well, for sure, I still have friends to count on. I still have friends to validate my actions and reactions.
Basically, my life has been set up on a stage lately, glittering, shining, until it all fell down and the denouement stayed at tragedy. I'm not sure until when it stays there. I'm not sure if the "director" would let me stay in this scene for long. Anyway, I still manage to fake it sometimes, people would still tell me I look inspired but when things settled in, I know even if I laugh hard, even if I smile from ear to ear, my eyes won't lie, there's just no faking it.
I am torn. I have loved. I have gave it my all. Some say I ought to wait, some say just give it all up and move on. My heart tells me I have to hold on to his promises, to stay strong and keep waiting but my mind tells me I could no longer put my life on hold. I still cry everytime I see his last message to me : "I love you more than anyone before. I love you asawa ko." If you love me, don't leave me in utmost confusion. If you love me, don't keep me guessing. If you love me, don't let me read between the lines. If you love me, keep your promises. If you love me, just mean what you say.
Who knows the ending to the story?
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