Have you ever looked back on the days in your past and you can only blurt out a sigh of relief? Are there days that you forget about all the hurt and every wound has already healed? Has there been a time when you have finally convinced yourself that really everything, every single little thing, truly happens for a reason?
I think I am in that point in my life. I am thankful that I have been through all the hurt imaginable (from being lied on, to being cheated, to being left without a word, to being wooed up until the end when clearly all the words said are already empty yet I convince myself that still all the words has truth in them). Always, more often than not, a plethora of unspoken desire to always know the truth is there but you would never know that a a lie is a lie until all things has been said and done. Whatever has happened however led me to find peace. A peace that brought me happiness and contentment.
Everyone who has followed me from when this blog came in to being until now, would know exactly what I have been through. All those memories I can only attempt to forget right now but I can boldly say that I have completely moved on and that I have no ill feelings to anyone. I think I have matured well and good and I have come to a conclusion that people come and go in our lives to teach us lessons. I am not bitter about all the circumstances that I have been though. I have come out unscathed from all of it and I can proudly say that I am a better person and that sense of pride I will wear most proudly every day.
Tomorrow, I don't exactly consider it bleak and cloudy anymore. I am living the present with utmost positivity and I trust that I will not fail this time. Days will roll into months and months into years, and I will cherish each and every single memory that this relationship will bring me.
We'll see each other again soon. Hang in there My Prince! Soon, soon, soon in the land of tulips and chocolates!!!
I think I am in that point in my life. I am thankful that I have been through all the hurt imaginable (from being lied on, to being cheated, to being left without a word, to being wooed up until the end when clearly all the words said are already empty yet I convince myself that still all the words has truth in them). Always, more often than not, a plethora of unspoken desire to always know the truth is there but you would never know that a a lie is a lie until all things has been said and done. Whatever has happened however led me to find peace. A peace that brought me happiness and contentment.
Everyone who has followed me from when this blog came in to being until now, would know exactly what I have been through. All those memories I can only attempt to forget right now but I can boldly say that I have completely moved on and that I have no ill feelings to anyone. I think I have matured well and good and I have come to a conclusion that people come and go in our lives to teach us lessons. I am not bitter about all the circumstances that I have been though. I have come out unscathed from all of it and I can proudly say that I am a better person and that sense of pride I will wear most proudly every day.
Tomorrow, I don't exactly consider it bleak and cloudy anymore. I am living the present with utmost positivity and I trust that I will not fail this time. Days will roll into months and months into years, and I will cherish each and every single memory that this relationship will bring me.
Sure I get lonely, and sometimes I am overwhelmed with this emptiness in my chest but I have this positive outlook that I hold on to that not so much longer we would be in each other's arm once again. That's what gets me through every minute that we're far apart. I am more than amazed that I have found a man like you. You have completely taken my heart. It's funny because I told myself I would never ever fall in love again. Yet when I was least expecting it I fell the hardest (March 1). I love you, Jelle Jozef Slaets...always.
We'll see each other again soon. Hang in there My Prince! Soon, soon, soon in the land of tulips and chocolates!!!
2 comments:
I really like this post. I assume you lose him. It pulls at my hert strings because 2 years ago my brother lost his wife. Please contact me if you ever just need someone to listen.
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Oh no no, we're still happily together. I lost someone through an accident before (http://missingbrandon.blogspot.com) and then lost someone to another girl just before I met Jelle. And we met for the first time last month.
Losing someone is terrible, such a terrible feeling.I felt that in 2006. You can check my other blog to see how I dealt with it...
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